emo

i have become quite lonely of late.

i mean, i've always felt somewhat lonely, but it's been more intense recently. it grabbed hold of me near the end of my work shift tonight and would not be shaken. still won't be. aimless searching through craigslist, frustration at the new facebook chat setup, solitary smoking on the back porch watching a somewhat past-it's-prime lightning storm fade to the east and north-east. chicago misses the rain; it pours to the north and south. i have seen this before, recently and not-so-recently.

tomorrow, the heat wave breaks a bit, and a bit more the next day. there is a fascinating trail of storms stretching from baja california to chicago, a straight southwest->northeast line across the country. there are large pulses moving up the line; they do not flow, rather grow and fade in one place before reappearing further along, growing and fading, growing and fading. the string remains unbroken until chicago, where the line breaks, sending one small cell northeast and another due east.

there is quite a pattern being drawn here.